On the most sensational inspirational celebrational Muppetational!

This is what my brain looked like at work, minus the lolcat stuff....

What hurts the most....

I'm sorry about those past few posts (minus that last one). Ever since I got off the boat I've been having a hard time adjusting back to reality. Its not that I floated off to Never Never Land, but its more that I realized I never got over Andy. I can't forget Andy, and most of you reading this have no idea who Andy is and that's fine. I really don't feel like sharing that. He has some distant relation to the ship, but the ship brought him back into my life again. I didn't see him, I haven't seen him in about 18 months, but it still hurts. And I wasn't expecting the hurt, it knocked the wind out of me and I haven't fully recovered. I don't know when I will, but I promise no more writing about how much I hurt. That's what my journal is for.

All I want is a room somewhere...

Okay total hypothetical question, but just curious to see what everyone says....


You're going on a roadtrip to Nebraska because you suddenly had this urge to be there (yeah I really can't think of a good reason to go to Nebraska). But you don't want to go alone, so which three people do you bring? You can't bring family or friends. You can only bring fictional characters, doesn't matter if they are literary, television, movie, video game, or otherwise. Please share?

What's left of me....

Maybe I am better off being on land, far away from you. I will go back, it more of a home to me than Rutgers, and its beginning to edge out my house...

Because the will never take me alive....






“Undermine their pompous authority, reject their moral standards, make anarchy and disorder your trademarks. Cause as much chaos and disruption as possible but don’t let them take you ALIVE.”
-Sid Vicious

A hotter kiss a better f!&$%

Another day... another train wreck

How long til I can't do this any more?

Hold me down...

Never have the lyrics "I'm six feet from the edge..." apply to me so much as they do now.

It hurts, it really hurts, and its just going to get worse...

Kid Rock killed music

I thought time was supposed to heal all wounds, its getting harder every day.

Will you bite the hand that feeds?

At least this time the après projectile vomit was kept to a minimum.....

One Night In the Name Of Love...

The whole room is spinning. I've been off the ship for almost 20 hours and I'm a wreck. More when I can pull myself together...

I'm sailing away...

So its not my birthday, but I needed to vent. My role in friendships has always been the supporter. If you ever needed a shoulder, a hug, a cheerleader, a confidant, anything, I always try to be there. Sometimes its out of my hands, but when I'm needed, I try to be there.

Lately, however, I've found many of my relationships to be one sided. There's no reciprocation, its like I'm only good for a hug and a Good Luck wish when needed. I'm fairly certain that's not a friendship. I remember biology and environment class saying that is a -/+ relationship or a parasite relationship. Whatever it's called, good for you, bad for me.

I've already confronted one "friend" with this tidbit of information and it was returned with nothing (its a long distance friendship and most of it is based off of phone calls, texts, and email). Since Easter, nothing but one text that said Sorry, the girlfriend that I just dumped was a crazy control freak. Well if you dumped her, what happened to our friendship?

I'm scared to say something to others, I mean obviously I have my friends who have a functioning relationship with me, but what about the others? Is it worth the kiss off or do I just shrug it off and deal with it another day?

I hate having dead weight, and that is what these friendships could turn into. But I feel if I start cutting ties, I'm ditching people for reasons they could not control. I guess the best thing to do is wait for school to resume. See what life brings then...

And the sign says "long hair freaky people need not apply" ...

Taking a wee break from the blog. I'll be back around my birthday, hopefully.

I really hate Radiohead....

So I finally got a new laptop. Hopefully this one won't start melting to my desk like the last one did! Its little and shiny and white! I'm thinking of enrolling it into the KKK. (Oh goodness, I hope everyone gets that it is a joke...)


Wheeeeee!!!! Only a few more days til the weekend. It can't come fast enough...

It will run for 50 years!

The end of the 1800's and beginning of the 1900's had bohemians, creative souls, and absinthe.
The end of the 1900's and beginning of the 2000's had terrorist, death, and the Y2K bug.


That doesn't seem just.

Well back to Moulin Rouge!

Now you're calling me up on the phone....

So I was driving home from somewhere today, I really can't remember where, and the sun was setting behind me. And for some reason I wasn't looking at the cars in front of me, rather, I was looking at the road. My crazy mind thought that the shadow my car cast looked like Shrek the ogre....

I think I'm going to call my phone Fiona...