Oh look what you've done....

JOSH: THIS POST IS NOT ABOUT YOU, JUST TO SAVE US A HALF HOUR OF POINTLESS CONVERSATION AGAIN.

I don't know what to do with myself any more, up until this year everything was some what normal and sane. My best friend was sane, she wasn't as insecure and he boyfriend wasn't an ass. Classes were fine, I was content with my major and my back up plan. I never thought to major in anything else. My friends were like family, my three friends and I did everything together. Each one served a major part in getting me through the day, Cassie and Cathleen for just about everything and Kurt for my texting addiction and sports fix. I listened to the same crappy bands I always had, and I watched more movies than Ebert and Ropert combined. I just want to go back to that, where the most embarrassing thing in my life was my lovely comment of "Now I can die happy", and tears were shed over expos deadlines.

I never like looking back and wishing for the past, I'm very future oriented. There's to much for me to do, no time to pine for the past, but after these past few weeks I wonder sometimes. Friendships have ended, new ones begun, fights have been had, laughter has echoed through the halls, but in the end, I wonder if any of them have been worth it....